Category : Poems

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I hate myself today for all the things I did yesterday
I hate myself tomorrow for everything I failed to do today 
I ask God for a little leeway 
Tells me all his free passes used up for today
I beg her for just one more chance
She says theres no love left for me not today not tomorrow 
Vows only emptiness spite and sorrow 
I bend and I fold 
I crack and I break to fit her intricate mold
Still not right still not good enough 
I carry the scent of a thousand broken promises 
Wreak of rotting betrayal 
Just another day gone another goal surely to fail
Heaven seems so far outside my possible reach
I can never seem to escape the atrocities of self destruction 
Try to kill it with bleach push the plunger and wash it all away 
Flood veins full of denial and disfunction 
I hate myself more than the bruises will ever show
Untold past kept close never spoken never tell 
Sick secrets expose a horror show
Sadistic glow sticks the taste of curry trigger terified creases upon the brow
Heart quivers in adrenalin frenzy 
Legs shake debating fight or flee all options considered 
No choice we see as our eyes water as in walks the parasite which fills the bedroom late at night 
The paralyzing reality forces terror and dread cold chill run along our spine shivers
Sheets made of silk upon the throat of parasitic kings 
They take all they want and leave the rest 
 Emotionless and dead inside lay the victim of the parasitic pedofile fuck fest.