Category : Books-Non-Fiction

Sub Category : Biography

Tidbit....

For those who suspect but are to polite to ask.... yes majority of my excerpts are in fact true life experiences.... my life to be exact....Why air it out some may ask well simple .... speaking to those In concern hadn't gotten me the satisfaction or the results I hoped to get in actuality I got the opposite of it .... So this brings me to the point of experiencing my first Anxiety Attack and T.I.A a.k.a.(MiniMinorStroke) at and between the age of 29 and 30... which place me in a "rehabilitation centre to not only overcome my extreme emotional despair but also my physical mobile ability as well. 

Whilst in this center I attended group sessions of various therapy and singular therapy as well... which both helped immensely.... remembering one session of one on one with my shrink .... he recommended me writing my life expoilts and as I do this purge myself in the "ink" that touches the paper so to speak.... 

So taking this advice I applied it and found my self writing up to three 3 quire books with a total of 288 pages in each in a space of a week... if not less and as I wrote I felt lighter free less and less burdened with what hurt me in the past .... When I finished each book I diligently dropped my book off  in the in tray  for my shrink to read and get a better perspective of what and who I am....

And when he came to my Last book he called me in the day after he finished reading it .... Recalling as I walk to his allotted space .... and crossing the threshold he pulled me into a hug .... stunned into silenced I broke down with heart wrenching silent tears as I knew at that point he knew what I endured and what I was enduring .... and what only awaits when I left the institute .... we stood like that for a few minutes with no words but the solace I felt in that embrace felt like a light warm summer breeze filled with promise and hope.... 

Soon after we broke apart and him giving me a tissue he requested I sit and listen.... he spoke of  various aspects pertaining what I've written and how I was brave enough to withstand that type of abuse which to him  was pure and simple strength...and trust in God.... he told me to never lose faith and to always believe that life holds better and brighter futures as I only need to trust God's wills and follow the path he choose .... he asked me to never stop writing and to immerse my self in the art so that many can and will be able to relay and interact with what I've experienced and experiencing in life to date ....

So coming back to my stories I have... yes it did happen to me and yes it's made me stronger but like any strong person I have a heart of gold .... I will give my Last but I will not stand and promote injustice to the next soul.... I will not stand for lies deciet betrayal and audultry in any form.... ....for I know what's it's like to have those very things  done onto myself.... I know only to painfully how my heart breaks on hopes of a man to love me back the way I love him and yet be disappointed each and every time.... I know what's it's like to never be good enough to a mother who is never gonna see me without remembering her pass.... but what I will be is the very best mom friend and sister I can possibly be to my kids.... I will lead by example that no matter what curve balls life throw at you .... you catch and throw one right back you show karma and the universal powers of good and bad that with God has my savoir and his book as a guide i will prevail always .....  So for those who wants to know my story feel free to read my excerpts and if u want to leave a vote of confidence or a just coz .... you are welcome to do so....


Live Love Pray......Rashida