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Do you ever see a photo or a video, or think of a memory when you were having a rough day, week, month, or year? And despite the fact that you’re happy now, for just a little while, you feel that again and it leaves a hollow, damaged feeling in your soul. Bc I do and I know that people and experiences from my past have done that to me and I can’t help but feel sad bc I let it happen to me. I let them affect me.
 I told myself I would never love bc that gives others room to hurt me and then I found this amazing soul...but my mind still creates so much doubt from the hurt I’ve been through in the past. I want so badly to erase that, but then I wouldn’t be who I am now. I’ve come so far. If the past were different, everything I felt or knew about so much would change to fit how I grew up, who I was surrounded by, etc.
 I often find myself wondering how different life would be if I did anything different. Do you ever think about that? You could change one decision and it changes your path the rest of the way. But the mind likes to wander, doesn’t it? It takes you down a rabbit hole of thoughts and where you end up is the mystery of it all. You never know quite where you are going to go and if the path were to change, it affects the rest of your journey, your adventure of life. Where you go next is based on decisions you make right now, but you don’t think about that as we make these decisions. It slips out of our minds as easily as it comes in.