Category : Poems

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Why can't I seem to get you off my mind out of this shipwreck of a body which the whole world still thinks I've got one hell of a rocking ass body, even after the years and years of abouse that was partially my own doings by being several years off an on again what Society likes to label as a  "Drug Junkie",
Yeah I know that I'm sure the hell I'm far from being perfect but who is?
The rest of the other years of abouse that my"rocking ass body" has gone through for the many years that which was NOT self inflicted is either from being :
Rapped, sexually molested by my own sick twisted excuse for family, as well as for some of the MOST SORRY EXCUSE for men in which I had made a mistake of getting myself tangled up with which have placed their coward gross and grimmy hands on me as they had taken control over myself as well as my sorry excuse for a life in that Transit as they had control over me as they  placed their coward gross and grimmy hands on me all at the sametime, I can live with ALL OF THE PERMEATE SCARES that either my own family or my love of my life has left me with for the REST of My Life, and, 
No I'm not saying that it is okay for what these sorry low life's of what supposed to been either my own family or the love of my life,
To rape, sexually moleste or to place even a their hands on me, NO MATTER WHAT, because I too I'm no different than they, except for the fact that I'm obviously a lot more stronger than they're as well as a much bigger person/ woman than any of those aasholes that have left permeant wounds, as well as some permeant damage like just for one that I've been struggling with ALL of my life Trusting others as well as getting to know them to hopefully just one day FALL so DEEPLY in LOVE, that maybe just maybe I can NOT get HURT or have MORE PERMENT BATTLE WOUNDS from getting myself tangled up with YET ANOTHER LOSER just LIKE I HAVE in the PAST so that I can marry in not just what I've thought in the past that I was happy as well as Madly in love with which just to come to find out was just me, just getting fed up with being treated like I was these monsters punching bag to leave permeant wounds and their permeant scares on without my whole body and was just hoping and dreaming that just maybe that this one will be the right one for me who will finally treat me like that princesses, woman, humanbeing, in which I CLEARLY I'm in deserving of, just like ALL IF NOT MOST OF THE WOMAN IN THIS WORLD!! 
WHY CAN'T I GET YOU OFF MIND LET ALONE OUT OF MY LIFE FOR GOOD PERMENTLY!!!

WRITTEN BY: Donna
                                    Ruttenbur 
ORIGINAL DATE WRITTEN: February22,2020