Letter From A Widow Read Count : 10
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October 21st 2019 at 9:50 am is the moment I lost you forever. I went in to our room to check on you and you were no longer breathing. You were my world my everything. Ever since you passed away my life has gone down hill. I love you Dan and I am struggling to stay afloat. I never thought with all the skills you taught me that I would end up homeless. But it happened for a few short weeks. And to top it off i was homeless with Danny a three month old Labrador. Which I named after you because being without you is hard. The fun part of her is I believe you are in her because she has your personality large. Right now. What hurts the most is that the kids stopped talking to me and remy took off without letting me know. I have lost a pant size being stressed and worried and depressed. After 6 months of no period it finally came yesterday. George our landlord said that it’s a good thing that my body is now at ease and can relax again. He has been a bigger help to me then our friends and family and for that I am grateful. When I had the problem with the movers he was there and defended me and lent me money and he was running me all over the place to help me out. I will forever be in his debt. Just like I am forever in yours for all you have done over the years for me. I hate this being at my aunts in Windsor and knowing you aren’t there at home for me when I come. That would be hard when I have no home anymore. I feel guilty like I’m cheating on you. I have been talking to this guy who wants to be friends and go from there, but I’m scared I’m hurting you. Maybe I am destined to be alone for the rest of my life. People keep saying to me and I’m tired of hearing it your 33 your young Dan loves you and wants you to move on. He is no longer in pain. But that still doesn’t sit right with me. It still hurts. I don’t know baby what to do or where to go. Anyways just know I love you with all my heart and soul. And I don’t want to do anything to upset you. May your soul Rest In Peace. Until we meet again your loving wife Sarah aka Your Kitten.
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