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Oh I'm tired! 
 I want to end it all. 
The pain, the suffering, sleepless nights.
Can someone just make it go away? 
Even if it's for a second ,someone please just make me numb to this agony.
It hurts. It hurts so bad that I wanna ask God "why me" but not this time. 
It hurts so bad that I wanna quit and curse God and drown in barrels of tequila but no, I'll be fine.
I scream to the mirror mirror on the the wall and all that echoes back  is, " as if your God cares at all"

Hold on. Come to think of it ,that's absurd.
He loved me even before I was conceived. Right from the womb He saved me from miscarriages and abortions. 
I can see, breathe, talk ,walk , and you think it's all by chance?
No! I'm a living breathing walking talking testimony. 
He didn't say weapons won't be formed He said they're not going to prosper. 

It's gotten so hard that I want to throw in the towel, but I wont give Satan that satisfaction. 
No matter the circumstance,I choose life because I choose Christ. 
I know through it all He'll hold my hand step by step, when I'm exhausted He'll pat my back and remind me we're almost there. 
He loves me and will love me ,my shortcomings notwithstanding. 
Trials will come, but I'll pull through, because I've got Victory Himself. 
And at the end of it all, with a fulfilled heart, I'll gracefully sing my redemption song

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