Surounded In Misery The Read Count : 128

Category : Poems

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As I lay here surrounded In my own misery my anxiety begins to inflate I just want  to know  the fate of my own future wondering how much longer can this torture go on something has got to give or I don't want to live this life no more sick of bad luck forced not give a fuck I get the shakes my stomach aches and I can't suppress my own grieving think my soul is secretly leaving my confusion is off the charts so many broken beliefs  causing malfunctions in my own head assumptions are piling up I think I've gone into some sort of safe mode but I'm not spitting no code maybe I need a download all that I know is I'm struggling not to take my own life to everyone I try to be so nice but I think my niceness is confused for weakness my loneliness has become poisonous I'm on the verge of loosing self controll digging  a hole that I'm afraid I won't get out of loosing all my love I hold so tightly desperately I'm tring to stay focused I'm at the  lowest I've ever Been I just  wanna be in control again I'm stuck in this captivity and can't seem to escape don't know how much more I can take I've been so damn patient I can't  communicate with anyone forced to be miserable and alone I'm slipping away and no one even notices that I'm going to fail horrifically I am forced to self observe this is so absurd I'm stalked by police on a nightly basis I seriously cant take this I hate this I need to break this way if living I have so much more I could be giving to people whom deserve it to give up now just wouldn't be worth it I have to make a plan and I know I fucking can I think I have a lawsuit on many different levels I'm afraid to go and shower afraid I'll miss the police stalking me

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