Meeting My Father
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When the time comes and I go to the proverbial next lifeI Will reunite with those loved and lostMy son my mother my sister my cousinThen- I hope to meet my FatherTo reunite indicates a familiarity with their realityI had no such experience with himDying when I was six there were no memories to connect withMy Mother never spoke of him and my Sister gave me “tidbits “ years laterSurprising to me for we were very close and open and I assume it was to protect me from the painIronically-it caused more pain as a dull emptiness crept into my heartAs I got older and became a father-the significance of the issue increasedI became conscious of the mistakes of protectionYou should not hide children from realityThey are much more resilient than we give them credit forThings held back and revealed later in life often cause more damage and resentment(The adoption issue is a perfect example)There is almost a child-like anticipationwhen I reflect on this -as well as an ironic contradictionI’m in no hurry to get to that next lifeBut I can’t wait to meet him