The Girl, I Used To Be. Read Count : 64

Category : Songs

Sub Category : Rap
Lies, lies. They surround me. Why do you promise to make me upset, 
Is it fasinating when you see me cry? Would you care if I pulled our a knife and die? 

Cries, you don't hear me cry not a single drip? If you heard me would you care. 
Would you stop everything to try and give me a hug, maybe try to bother me? 'that's all I want.

Quiet, yes I'm quiet. IM AWARE, but instead to stop and try to stare. Cause, all you see is a loner girl you can maybe pull me up talk to me and try to be my friend. But, you stare and look over there, and you see the girl the girl who has this unwanting name of the "Quiet Girl"  thats all you see when you look at me, but I'm much more. My thoughts are more sadder then my life, I like to think but I dont think twice. 

Family. Hello, dad, mom, siblings.  I love you all very much, except you mom you know what you did on that day to make me hate you this way. I love you all for what you've done. I smile and look back to that, but you know I'm suicidal it's okay I'll try to handle this thought but it's hard. Everyday, i look at you. I get ignored cause I'm unwanted. But,it's okay. I love you dad I know you try. But, it makes me wanna cry. You made this mistake I've become I hide online everyday because it's my only safe place. I'm not abused, used.  But, my depression has taken control of me and I cant help it. 

So, I'll go. I'll die, I'll tell you what it's like daddy, sister, brothers. 
I'll miss you very much when I'm there. But, I know you care. You to mom, maybe these are just some dumb words. And I'm overreacting but isnt that what they ALL SAY? Maybe, maybe I'm wrong.
These are words that's all I'll say some things are better off in my mind they say, I had to get this off my chest, I hope you take these words for real. Not a joke, like the joke I am. I love you all very much I hope you know it's time to say bye cut the string grab the rope hang myself then I choke.

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Comments

  • Hey, if you see this. I recommend you reading this as a rap. More than just as if you were reading a book, lol. Thanks! :)

    Sep 30, 2019

  • Sep 30, 2019

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