Category : Diary/Journal

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Sitting here thinking just wanted love and affection for so many years, I grew numb to the pain; just wanted somebody to be there where everyone was there for everybody jealous and alone, envy in spite, filled with sorrow until I found my own lover. Even though we're far away in foreign lands I'm just sitting here remeniscig on the past I messed up, but I heard God tell me that I was just lonely and I acted out by harassment just wanting someone to hold to hug on I found it to be my foreign country everyone was acting iffy on wanting me so I searched for lovers in foreign lands knowing that my life is supposed to be single I sit here and I fight it still but it's not too bad to be single but also wish I was married by now, maybe I'm just trying to figure my games and my taints out and my worths and values out but sometimes I feel like I know myself already. Sometimes I feel different like if I'm the black sheep in my family not fitting in nowhere. Not popular in heart, just like a lonely penguin in the freezing alone.