Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

Friday, July 7, 2017 10:15 p.m.
                                   ⬇
They don't notice any of the hints I give them. Like staying in my room all day, wanting to be away from home as much as possible. Trying to stay away from my dad as much as possible. They have no idea how many times I've cried myself to sleep because of him. My dad is a complete drunk and I have found what may be drugs in his home office. He's caused me so much pain. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. Somehow, no matter what he does, I just can't find it in me to hate him. I guess it's just because he's my dad. I'm not supposed to hate him. Sometimes I think he's changed. He'll actually be nice to me and not yell at me. But then he does something to ruin it. Everyday I dread opening the fridge because I'm scared I'll find a pack of beer. I can't take it anymore. Everyday I'm holding back tears. I'm scared. I'm alone. I can't seem to talk to anybody but my friends. And I hardly see them because it's summer break. I can't get through this alone. I'm lost and breaking on the inside. I'm scared and I don't know what to do.