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The confessions of a broken hearted woman



I saw you once,

And it was love at first sight.

I'd heard of happiness,

I was convinced I'd find it in you

So being loved by you became my first priority

And a life of happily ever after with you was my everyday fantasy. 

But little did I know,

I was drowning in a waterless pool 



In my head was this myth of you and I being together.

I walked with my head in the clouds,

Thinking you felt the same way.

I was made blind by thoughts that 

You may be playing the women's game.

And I made myself believe that you might be feeling a little too shy.

How I wish it had dawned on Me

That I was drowning in a waterless pool



Acknowledging I wasn't loved by you felt like torture.
The thought of you not feeling the same way was a hard nut to crack.
Knowing I'd never be with you was difficult.

But accepting that you're with her was hell.



I was drowning in a waterless pool.

I was holding on tight to a one-way ticket to heartache.

I could feel myself drowning. 

The pool waterless,

But I was soon to realise it was bottomless too.



I badly wanted to reach the bottom 

But i discovered that the way back was a thousand times shorter than the way to the bottom.

And that instant,

The words of one wise woman I admire, echoed at the far back of my mind;



"Please be true to yourself"

*song melody*



These are the words that woke me up,

The words that made me look around

And when it registered that I was drowning

In a great waterless and bottomless pool,

I chose to turn back.

I gave up my ticket to heartbreak,

My heart was already too shattered.

And most of all,

I had to let go

Because I was clinging to something that is not mine,

Some thing that has never been mine,

Something that would never be mine.



I had to be strong.

I had to just close my eyes and hold the knife by the blade as I walk past you.

For I believe that the million scattered pieces of my heart will one day come together

And I'll be able to love again