Category : Poems

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A poem I wrote illustrating my personal spiritual warfare battle...
Raised by Gods glory, that's how I was brought up
Devil coming for me, that's how I got caught up
Lord blessed me with everything, everything I ever needed
But I threw it all away and told him that I didn't need it
So young with an attitude, lived my life controlled by anger
Where does it all come from, I don't know but life is crazy
See I say that all the time, say it on a daily basis
But it is so true to me, do not ask me to explain it
So much pain I've been through, probably brought it on myself
Nevertheless it hurts so bad this cannot be good for my health
But I keep on pushin' through it, pushin' through the rainy days
See this is a vicious cycle, drugs would take the pain away
But the help was temporary, tell me will it ever change
Guess it will remain the same until I plan to change my ways
But how do I change my ways, guess get on my knees and pray
Still temptations keep on coming, pushin' through them everyday
I'm torn between this life of God, I'm torn between these blunts I toke
Torn between whats right and wrong, see do these people really know
What they think they know about me, and I think it's crazy though
How they judge me but they can't see the angel that's behind the poem
Demons all around us but to them I think the curtains closed
Over their eyes, desensitized to the difference between friend and foe
Look at how I live my life, call me hypocritical
If you only knew I try so hard, my sins I am forgiven for
Keep in mind im only human, so are you that's why we pray
Help us fight through these temptations we face each and every day
Like smokin' blunts and drinkin' beer, they seem so innocent to me
I'm probably wrong, but fuck that shit, I'm going to do it anyway
Damnit here I go again, my alter ego's kickin' in
From good to bad, from bad to good, I pray that good will finally win
But then again I am not sure the bad I do lines up with sin
Lord if it does then I am sorry for this buzz that's kickin' in
This might sound fucked up to you, but this is just the truth within
My heart that I'm speaking,  if it's too real then I understand
See do not get me wrong, I'll tell you right now that it's God I fear
I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH, I CANNOT TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR