I'm Sorry Read Count : 117

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I'm not what you want. I'm not what anyone wants. That has been proven time and time again. Everyone walked out, and you did too. But unlike the others, you came back. I don't know why. You feel bad? You only want my body? You don't want to be alone? Many thoughts race through my head because I don't deserve you. Night after night I cry, and tell you my real thoughts, which drove you to leave the first time. Now I'm constantly terrified that you'll walk out again. It was painful the first time. It was pain I've never felt before, but the next time will be amplified. Without you, I'm just a depressed nobody trying to fight for my life in vain. Maybe it's time I gave up. I've already tried before. In the end, you'll leave. Just like everyone else. So, I'm sorry that you fell in love with me. I'm sorry I fell in love with you. I'm sorry I'm depressed, constantly worried, constantly anxious, constantly questioning, the opposite of what you want and need. I'm sorry for being alive.

Comments

  • Meena Walia

    Meena Walia

    u r a blessing.beauutiful creation of god.and u deserve a lot of love.have faith god bless u

    Sep 18, 2019

  • Maurice  Beres

    Maurice Beres

    If you have Someone who loves you and has returned to confirm his love 🦋you are very lucky🦋He must see qualities in you that you cannot recognize or accept 🦋perhaps if you dig deeper alone or with him some of those qualities may be revealed 🦋this could dramatically change your life if that’s truly what you want🦋If you reverse the situation imagine the pain you would feel loosing him forever 🦋it seems you have a unique opportunity Don’t lose it🦋thank you for sharing Keep writing 🦋Never Give Up

    Sep 18, 2019

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