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After getting enrolled in the college,my eldest son started making plans to make the best of the newly acquired freedom.He was so enthralled by the adventure that lay ahead that he hardly noticed my fear and sadness that gripped my heart at the thought of losing my little baby who was all set to crawl out of my lap and enter the big new world.
As much as I was happy for my son,I could not refrain from wallowing into self pity as I fear that the enticing adventure into the outside world is a one way journey and my little baby will never be the same again.His time will now be divided between studying and enjoying with friends and I wasnt very sure how much would be left for me.
I tried to console my aching heart first with the faith in my little child who would hopefully never forget how much I love him and then with the practical thought that every bird leaves the nest some day but having more people in life to love doesn't necessarily mean that love ends for the existing ones.
I also felt guilty that instead of being happy and proud of my son's achievements, I am feeling sad and insecure.I told myself that if my child is comfortable enough to leave me to venture into the world finding his own path then I have done my job right. Children are not ours to keep but it is our duty to teach them to soar high on their own.I pray to God that he gets success at every step of his life and all his dreams and ambitions are fulfilled.
But I still could not shake this overwhelming feeling of sadness no matter how much I convinced myself.I was my childs world until now and that was about to change.
However sensing my fear and apprehension my son came upto me and gave me a tight hug.His words",Mumma I will always be your little baby" erased all my anxiety and instilled back the confidence that his world may grow but our love will always remain undiminished.He may have outgrown my lap but he will always be my little Baby.
Meena, i am not a mother but i do understand how you feel. The empty nest syndrome is pretty normal for mothers i guess. But be rest assured that he will always be your baby no matter how old he gets or where he goes. You will always be the most important person in his life. You will miss not having him at home but that feeling will go in time. Be happy for him, and be proud of yourself for doing a good job in raising him. You did good, momma. Hugs! 💜
Aug 01, 2019
They remain your baby regardless of age My girl s are 52 and 50- my son would have been 60 in January The feelings you express are both normal and familiar. The bonus is remembering them from infants to young adults and the joy of their maturation The hug is a symbol of all the love you put in as a parent-Rewards better than gold Without rushing you- Double joy are grand children You’re anxiety is an expression of your love as is the hug Enjoy the ride and keep doing what your doing 🦋🦋🦋
Aug 01, 2019
I shouldn't say this after many have commented so good. I don't know where you stay and how the surroundings of that place. It is now the time you need to be very careful because college days nowadays aren't the same as it was early. If you stay in India and have watched savdhaan india and after taking the crime rate into consideration, you will get tensed to know that lots of crimes are committed by college students knowing or unknowingly. So my suggestion is from now you need to watch your son carefully and the first thing should start from checking his phone. Remember phone reveals the person's character easily.
Aug 02, 2019