Category : Poems

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Why did you cry, my innocent soul? 
It supposed to be a good day.
When everything is right at their own place.
Why do You keep testing my faith?
Though I've been dealing between hell or heaven.
You keep questioning my belief.

Are you deaf so you can't hear my voice?
You used to be there, right?
hear me cry, answering my questions about why did this happen.
Or just give me a sign when the devil comes with the sword on his right hand to punish me.

Is it Death or I must be dreaming?
Are you blind so you lose your sight and I'm being invisible to You?
Here I am bow down, on my knees, selflessness but the only one fading.
Hear my heartbeat, feel my breath.
I was walking on pieces of glass, it hurts.

I woke up in the middle of night, frightened, sweating, addicted for some pills to make me feel alright.
I just want You to understand I'm not strong enough to live like this.
Hear my heart, it was screaming for help.
Where are you, Thou?
Am I just that bad?
Am I too ugly to face these fears.
I'm gonna make it real. 
Or I'm gonna make You mine.

I was in pain for so many years.
Think that I could handle this flame.
What if I couldn't?
What if?
What if I just want to bleed myself to death,
face my own fears and find You in hell?

-Vivian Lin