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I feel that no matter what I say or do is never going to be good enough for you let alone anymore else for that matter even though you are always telling me that it's not me that it's you that has to work through the bullshit from which I have caused almost a year ago but yet you are the one who keeps bashing me in the face with the heartache that I have caused you to have as well as the mental image flash backs of me laying in our bed with your best friend, in which I have said that I was sorry for what I had done to you, I even told you that I would never do that to you again and jeopardize our relationship let alone our marriage even after the fact of me being deceitful and faithful to you, you still asked for my hand in marriage and I asked you repeatedly if you were sure that you still wanted to marry me after me cheating on you with your best friend while you were locked up and even after you got out of jail you were the one who said yes, I'm sure I still love you just as much as I did when we first got together, you also told me that you have forgave me but will never be able to forget what I had done to you last October but when you forgive someone for their wrong doings you don't ever keep bashing them in the face with their wrong doings, you don't tell the love of your life that your going to end you're life do to their wrong doings if you have forgave them you don't tell them things of their wrong doings and make them feel more like a complete udder shit hole than they are already feeling as well as making them beat the living shit out of themselves even worse than they already are for the wrong that they have done to you.
I feel that no matter what I sayor do is ever going to be enough for you to ever be happy as well ever to be able to love me like you once upon did before I crushed your heart into million of pieces which again you tell me that you don't give a fuck about anything that even means my heartfilled feeling's of any sort but I'm supposed to be okay standing on cloud nine how I'm supposed to be on cloud nine I will never know especially the way you often times especially here lately talk as well as treat me like I'm some trashy dirty ass cunt whore that shouldn't even be a part of your life since I have fucked up your life even more so that you just want to turn around and end it even after you have told me that you would never leave me, you would make sure that I never had to go through life alone. I feel that no matter what I say or do will ever mean anything to you 💔

I love you more than I can ever express to you let alone show you obviously just how much I really do love you as well as cherish what you have taught me about love as well as what it actually felt to be unconditionally loved as well as cared for since I had never in my life ever had unconditional love by another human being except for my children which is a totally different kind unconditional love which you have not only taut me what it was but you have also shown me what it was to have unconditional love which is all I've ever wanted
But I know no matter what I say or do it will never be good enough for you or anyone else for that matter

LOVE
ALWAYS
YOUR LOVING
WIFE
DONNA
RUTTENBUR