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Weird Habits/Addictions

I feel like I have a lot of weird stuff that I enjoy and some weird things that I'm addicted to doing. 

Habits

My habits include the following:

Shaking while in line for something I'm scared of
Singing while having my headphones in
Chewing and ripping at my nails
Trying to make contact with spirits
Playing horror games/watching horror movies before sleeping
I will get into detail after I do my weird addictions

Addictions

🤤🍫Chocolate🍫🤤
Watching or reading psychological stuff
Attempting to play the Ouija board (but I always chicken out) 
Always watching people do things that I refuse to do in real life
Listening to Lavender Town even though it gives me a headache
Weird Habit Explanations

1. Shaking while in line for something I'm scared of

The reason I shake when I do something scary is because even though my mind is saying do it, my heart says no. It just creates a sense of fear in myself, however once I do it that's when my heart realizes it wasn't bad. But, there is the exception of a rollercoaster at Six Flags, Ninja at Samurai Hill. I went on it and I am afraid of it now. I shake a lot when I don't want to do something. 

2. Singing while having my headphones in

Sometimes I'll have my headphones in and I'm unaware that anyone is around me. I have terrible stage fright, but when I have the singer singing with me I feel like I can sing along and not be judged. I am always told by strangers, my friends, and my family that my singing voice is beautiful, but I believe I sound like a dying cat. I love singing, don't get me wrong, but, in a choir class in elementary, I was always told by students that my voice is awful and I've been self-conscious about my voice. In the end, I realize I am who I am nothing more, nothing less. 

3. Chewing and ripping at my nails

I will see a nail that's hanging on by a thread and I rip it straight off. I also chew on my nails when I'm nervous. I don't know, I just don't know. 

4. Trying to make contact with spirits

So if you didn't know, I love the paranormal, I love ritual games, I love the Ouija board. I LOVE THE PARANORMAL! So sometimes, I sit in my room, focus all my energy and say the following, 

"If there is something in this room, I give you everything to use to communicate with me."

Then I hear my name being whispered and then things move and fall. So I ask questions and I get answers. I love the paranormal. 

5. Playing horror games/watching horror movies before sleeping

The thing about me is I rarely get nightmares. I usually get nightmares when I'm sick. Anyway, I play horror games and watch horror movies before sleeping and I don't get nightmares from it. I know it's not real and if it's not real it can't hurt me. 

Addictions Explanations

1. 🤤🍫Chocolate🍫🤤

Come on, who isn't addicted to chocolate? But the thing about my family is you can't leave chocolate in the house for a day because it gets eaten. My entire family loves chocolate. We are well known chocoholics. 

2. Watching or reading psychological stuff

I like learning about how serial killers, cannibals, and homicide works. It's really interesting and I feel empowered to help with psychological problems. I'm weird sorry. 

3. Attempting to play the Ouija board (but I always chicken out)

As much as I want to play the Ouija board I just can't get myself to buy one. I've made a Ouija board, but I just don't want to get possessed by Zozo or some other demon. 

4. Always watching people do things that I refuse to do in real life

I like this channel called Sam and Colby and they do all this stuff, explore, debunk, and play paranormal games. Like I mentioned earlier I LOVE THE PARANORMAL! However, I won't do any thing like rituals. Oh HELL NO! 

5. Listening to Lavender Town even though it gives me a headache

I love Lavender Town. It's a good theme and the town itself fits my dark and creepy nature. It's theme did not, I repeat DID NOT cause suicides, but it affects people differently, for me, it causes headaches. But, I LOVE IT.