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Darkness.... that has always been my nemesis. 
I get it, sometimes life isn't fun. At all. 

But in the darkness, that's where I get to surrender and look even deeper! 
Where can I find the fun? 

I remember a moment in my past where life seemed as dark as I could possibly imagine. Yet, I found the light again. That darkness which I thought was my mortal enemy, was actually the fertilizer I needed to conquer my biggest fear, which is darkness itself. I allowed myself to dwell on it a little longer and that was when I saw how valuable it really is and that I just needed to wash the dirt off to find the plate of gold when I'm ready. 

Darkness, as it turns out, is nothing more than merely lack of light. And once the light came through, I saw all kinds of sparkle. But until I'm ready, how much wisdom can I gain from the dark? 

I closed my eyes to ponder on that question. Behind my closed eyelids, it was dark. Yet, that darkness is where I go to think, to meditate, to sleep, to dream, to visualize, to relax. I don't fear it because at its core, the darkness is actually my friend. 

Most people associate dark with evil. But what is evil? It is a matter of perception. I'm not dwelling in my sadness or lack of empowerment, I'm actually gaining knowledge and wisdom from all that I experience and to not see things as good or bad/good vs evil, but to be an observer that soaks up the wisdom from all of life. 

I know now that the darkness is not to be feared or something to escape from. It is actually where I find 'enlightenment'. 

Well, that's another issue on my checklist that I have resolved. Now onto the next one.... can I laugh at life when it isn't fun?