Category : Diary/Journal

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every now and then i find my mind lost withen
clouds from storms that raged throughout my day raining tears that keep silent as i bus it to work some moments it doesnt wait tell night there are blank burst in my thunderstorms
after hearing so convincingly how un hearted stone cold plain evil i grow sick of disagreeing 
so much so i go out of my way to prove it true even as i watch it act out in weakness i figure it just happenes to be that time again.

i am aware of the many things that need changed aware to the fact i must take it one change at a time then i fight for the patience to fallow ahead even when i fear there is no end for me in my own hell its my darkness i alone created 
know as i that one that builds such darkness has to learn as i have yout eyes dont just see mouth isnt the only speaking ears more then hear you can seperate your sight voice and ears splitting them in 2 i still have long to practice but am able to see out side my actions yet i struggle to name how i feel
im so dam confused i have failed some agree and take it further into the negative way others kissing my ass tell me im a good person i know im not i just fake it all to well even times i dont wish to.
i still dreeam during my wake yet not as much or as hard i try to remind my dream tgat i have decided to no longer live in the fairytale tget im unable to ever have i need a change and i found my start yet not easy leads me to believe in its difficulty i will in lng run be rewarded i just hate the wait and the hours of work that only i am aware of.