Category : Poems

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I always took the clock to ponder about what it is that I desire. 

Yet, what I desire is one single answer not just a realization.

From my constant times of isolation and being alongside companions, I found that I desire none.

I desire to be comfortable with what I am confused with.

I desire to be okay with the isolation, to just disintegrate the malicious thoughts of being amongst myself.

I desire to feel at peace, to be truly happy with the companions I have now.

Yet, I cannot. 

I, for unknown reasons, cannot fathom true happiness, cannot see myself gaining more and more companions that recognize my legacy. 

Why am I enjoying sunshine, whilst lying in the rain? 

Why does my heart scream in my chest when surrounded by unknown people?

Why do I yearn for companions, yet stay holding hands with silence? 

For unknown reasons, I do not know.

But, I find that I am quite happy not knowing. Maybe because I love myself too much.

And I feel enlightened knowing such a thing.