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Writer's Note:

This is a piece I journaled on my journey to rediscovering Me. 

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In the quiet moments, I am able to process and make more sense of the goings-on of the day, deciding what to hold onto, and what should be discarded; like a grand sifting process. Some days are so full, it's hard to know what to make of them, for better or worse. Nonetheless, as I am able to get away from the hectic stresses and anxiety-inducing situations/people, I remember what's real and most important for me. 

When the negative voices of disapproval and criticism have quieted, I speak to myself in my thoughts with softer, loving tones. I think in such a way that I feel at home in my own skin, seeing my actual beauty, and be more acutely aware of my own value. I remember that I am of immeasurable worth and beautifully special in so many ways. 

No matter what discouraging things I've heard or felt, I now take a moment to see how much I have accomplished each passing day. I recognize every step of my journey is a part of what gets me to the destination I'm heading, just as each drop of rain is a part of the mighty ocean waves. Every bit of progress matters, no matter how seemingly small or significant, and I genuinely do my best to do as much as I possibly can. Yes, when it's quiet, I do see how far I've come on this journey and I can be proud of how much I have transformed internally - emotionally, mentally, spiritually. 

In the calm, I know that I'm a much-needed part of so many lives. In the course of a lifetime, it's hard to measure how many lives will see and feel my personal influence, but I do see that my footprints have traversed across the paths of so many individuals, and that without me they'd never have been the same. Each time I've taken a moment to help, encourage, comfort, and inspire, I know that I've touched a life for the better, and that is one more step closer to my purpose of being here. 

I understand this world can be loud, threatening, and a bit alarming at times. That it can all be consumingly overwhelming. I am also aware that if I am not vigilant, the emotional pathologies of some can skew the way I see myself. And so, it's crucial for me to process those people and their input for what they actually are. Like less relevant filler ads, they may belong in the back of whatever I publish in my mind and heart. But my front page should only reflect who I actually am and what I am genuinely worth, because in the grand scheme of things, that is what truly matters. Sure, other contents of life are notable and perhaps worthy of time and attention, but it is Me, Myself, and I, who is the ultimate editor, decisive as to what takes priority. Bottom line, not every single article can make the cut, and that's okay. 

In the quiet of this moment, I know the truth; that I am special in my own ways, and that I am loved. It isn't earth-shattering news, I suppose, but it's something that still is worth publishing, over and over again. 

"Everything changes when you begin to love yourself. You no longer send out energy of desperation or need to be filled from the outside. You become a powerful source within yourself that attracts better. The more you love who you are, the less you seek validation and approval." ~ Jay Shetty

This has been so true and relevant in my life lately.... I couldn't have said it better in such precise form. 

The journey to self-love and self-compassion isn't straight-forward or simple, 'one time and done' type of thing, no. It's a constant work-in-progress. 

I never fully arrive to the perfect self-love state, but I most certainly get closer to it every single day, with every small step I take in that direction on that journey of self-love. 

The work never stops. But the more I work on accepting, loving myself, the better my life gets. I become a better human-being, better friend, better sibling, better daughter. 

I am worthy of being loved, accepted, and celebrated NOW, right here, where I'm in my life RIGHT NOW. I don't need to wait with loving myself and feeling worthy until I finish a project, reach a milestone or a goal, or become recognized for my accomplishments. I am simply worth loving, worth celebrating right here, right now. 

I see you. I feel you. 

I hear your name whispered in my ear. 

I know you. I believe in you. 

Please know that I truly care. 

Allow me to fly with you, 

our wings we open wide. 

Across the oceans blue, 

over worlds we shall glide. 

Give your love, dear one, 

to those hearts that cry in pain. 

Trust in yourself enough to know, 

that this is not all in vain. 

You came here on a mission, 

you came to remember You. 

You have been in remission, 

everything that you feel now is all true. 

So open your heart, beloved, 

and let your song of joy be heard. 

Let your love be felt by all mankind, 

and allow 'goodness' to be the word. 

I am blessed to know you deeply, 

your love is my central sun. 

I bow in humble honouring, 

for the discovery that We are One. 


Comments

  • May 23, 2019

  • hihowareya today

    Hihowareya Today

    This is so beautiful!

    May 23, 2019

  • Sensational 🦋🦋🦋🦋🤟🏿

    Jun 05, 2019

  • Your work abounds with the poetic spirit. You bring a lot of nourishment from your depths that should be milk and meat to build heart and mind with muscle of spirit to forge on with the walk or climb.Thank you.

    May 30, 2019

  • Jun 03, 2019

  • I liked it😁

    Jun 03, 2019

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