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I have cried for a guys
I lost count of how many times
I got my heartbroken by a guy
 who I  taught our love will last 
he was my first love 
he was long distant and far away 
I taught he was my soulmate 
but behind my back he was doing something else but I didn't know and we even gotten engaged and it was that serious 
yet when I realize 
 it was all false 
a facade 
he never love me 
and that hurt me 
that broken me
I close my heart 
and decide that love wasn't for me 
it broken me  that I wasnt the girl for him
I have cried for you and I hate it 
I loved you 
even when I was young I knew love was..
but did I really? 
it was a possible but I dont think 
so after this happen
I jump to relationship over relationships
never really taking a time to heal 
until one day I meet this guy and who I had falling for so hard and to be honest he wasn’t really  my type but I liked him for some reason 
my "best friend" told him I like him and so out the blue he ask me out and I accept 
honestly the was a dumb move of mine 
I didn't know him well 
we didn't even talk that much until we are with friends 
we didn't have chemistry but one you fallen and you can’t help stop it
we broken up 
I did something horrible to myself 
my life was a mess (I will explain the later on) 
I was fallen apart 
I cried and I felt apart 
every since then I gave up on love 
he left me for her, a girl who I taught was my bestfriend  wasn't 
so I keep the close door 
until out of the blue 
my old crush 
confession he liked me back 
who happen to be my bestfriend 
I know how risk it was 
but I liked him 
but we were distant apart 
yet I still gave him a chance 
but this time before he gotten the chance to break up with me and I did it 
I taught I was happy with him 
I taught it was going to work 
but we both change
the distance was include 
it didn't work for us 
or I didn't want  it work 
I guess that was it.
we were together for 6month honestly  but in those 6 month and it didn't feel right 
another 6 month later 
I meant this guy 
he was perfect 
he was single dad
he was married 
yet I felt in love with him 
and he did fallen for me
 but it was ldr 
he would greet me 
I would greet him 
but we never label anything honestly.
Honest I’m glad because I seen the real him before anything serious can happy
This made me realize 
That there are tons of different love
You just got to find it and handle the pain
Ever tear will worth it
When you finally meet the one 
So don’t be afaird to open
Because you never know 
If your missing the chance.