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Well the app crashed so I guess I'll be re writing this one. 
Forgiveness isn't easyily obtained not even in the slightest. I've made a grave, grave mistake taking advantage of my best friends kindness. I didn't think of anyone else but myself for two whole months leading to an absolute disaster. Now I'm stuck with the consequences, everyone I thought would leave and never speak to me again is still there and the one person who I never expected to leave is gone. She was everything to me finally someone who understood and made me so happy. But I was heartbroken for two months and overstressed, overworked, with emotions that had been bottled up for years just bursting at the seams. Thus I was a complete and utter bitch. I'm truly sorry for the way I acted and how I wasn't able to be there in your time of need. I wasn't stable enough to help nor even able to now all that's left is a broken friendship, with two completely different people. It's painful I want to go up to you give you a big old hug look straight into those big brown eyes and tell you I love you and that I really and truly appreciate everything you have done. But now if I were to even attempt that you would look down and just mutter it back possibly even avoid me. Because now no matter what I try it ends up with a fight. Either with miscommunication, jealousy, mistakes or even you just not in the mood to deal with me. I'm not trying to throw some pitty party gaining sympaythy from you as you said just using you for my own gain. I'm trying my best to just get back to where we used to be. But even if I'm like normal ol me you just seem to be tired of me all together. Honestly please tell me what you want I'll do it if it's me leaving you want I'll go, or to change, or anything just tell me..