Category : Stories

Sub Category : Fiction

ENTRY NO. 5

Last night, I had a dream.

I dreamt that a great scientist made a phenomenal discovery. He discovered the secret to happiness! He put it inside a pill and sold it at a very low price so that everyone would be happy.

The secret of the pill was that it would give you whatever you desire just as long as you don't do anything to get what you want after drinking it and just BELIEVE that the pill will do the rest.

Millions of people bought the pill thinking that it would solve all their problems.

After a while, though, everyone became very angry at the scientist. They said that the pill did not work. None of them got what they wanted, none of them found happiness, it's a hoax, a scam. They arrested the scientist and put him in jail. They charged him with fraud and put him on trial.

The judge, who also bought the pill, asked the scientist why the pill did not work. Perhaps, the judge said, the scientist forgot one crucial ingredient.

The scientist agreed, there indeed was one element missing, but the failure was not his, it was with the people who took the pill.

The judge asked him what it was.

The scientist answered, FAITH, the people failed to BELIEVE in the power of the pill!

When I opened my eyes it was as if I had awoken from a very, very deep sleep for I realized that the real reason for my frustration was that I, also, had lost FAITH.

Somewhere along the way I stopped BELIEVING; believing in life, in people, in myself. I had lost my sense of AWE for the small things.

I had become so disillusioned that the mystery of life had lost its WONDER.

I let life DEFEAT me! And the one thing I am not, or ever will be, is a LOSER! I refuse to surrender!

And so now, I am AWAKE...I am no longer a ghost floating in and out of the real world.

I am now FLESH AND BLOOD and I can FEEL again!

And I know that this time, for better or for worse I will LIVE MY LIFE the way that I WANT TO.

I know I can do anything I set my mind to.

All I need is to recapture that childlike faith that brings dreams into fruition, that unquestioning faith in the goodness of life, that pure, persevering faith in everything that I do!

Yes, LIFE can be UNFAIR.

But we've only got one shot at it to prove that that we are not alone, that we are not random entities.

We are here, right now, at this moment, at this space and time in the universe, and we have to make the most of it.

All we need is to reach out and look beyond ourselves, to see that life IS the real challenge.

DEATH was not the answer to my questions; it was the coward's way out.

It was a DEAD END and what I had been really searching for was a new beginning, a REBIRTH.

Just as the phoenix rose from its ashes, so shall I.

And so, this is the last entry to this memoir; for that small voice that used to haunt me has triumphed...

I am a failed suicide.

But I AM NOT A FAILURE.

I have chosen to walk the path that only the bravest of our kind tread on.

The PATH to LIFE.