Category : Poems

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Sometimes i look at myself in the mirror and i want to cry
Due to all the pain thats tucked deep inside
I let the outside world into my mind
Now no matter how i dress im never satisfied
Ive took many selfies thousands at least
Few said i was beautiful and i was grateful but still i see a beast
I let opinions make my heart crease with that came belief
I thought they was right
Sometimes i cant sleep at night
At times i try to be cocky but deep down i feel like i lied
To myself 
but ppl close to me that love me try to cheer me up n build my confidence up
 But due to majority statements
And popular faces
I feel so basic
Besides the mistake of a face
I have an enemy on my skin 
Rising from within
With the pain comes the lumps and with the lumps comes the blood n puss drain 
My body is scarred 
In even the most delicate places
It multiplies as time goes by
My body is running out of spaces
I tried to help myself 
To balance my health 
But nothing really works
Theres no cure for this n it hurts
Inside n out
How do i keep my head up
N clear my mind from doubt?
Show this disease n my depression what im about
Keep finding solutions
I feel like i got some points that need to be proven 
Cuz i got a 2 on 1 battle i gotta face
N i have no motivation to start this race
Im in such a dark place 
My mind is everywhere its controlling me
Theres a voice in my head thats scolding me
Sometimes i wanted to take myself out just to make it stop
But thats selfish
I told myself "you a punk bitch"
Like this is ridiculous 
How could i ever let myself get this bad?
Make ppl who dwell on my misery glad
Nah i gotta fix this soon cuz this is really sad 😢