Resentment. Read Count : 8

Category : Poems

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I see it now, I see the resentment.

I feel it now, she noticeably does not yearn for this commitment with me; not with me anymore. 


No matter what I do, no matter what direction I turn in this labyrinth I feel the odds are against my favor. Leaving me wounded, beaten until I’m sore slowly stripping away who I truly am within. I honestly deserve this. 


Am I not amounting to your standards? 

Am I doing everything backwards? 

Have I crossed the line where I am exiled and to never return? 


I see it now, I see the resentment. 

I feel it now, she noticeably does not yearn for this commitment with me; not with me anymore. 


Am I not good enough to amount to these expectations? 

Am I going to face humiliation? 


Well, I deserve it for all my mistakes and poor decisions. My past was not great, only because that path was one that I paved. 


I deserve this resentment for allowing myself to become completely obsolete; I’m doing my best, even after countless defeats you still see light in me. 


Absurd, you must be joking you all must think, even she thinks the same thing. 

You are everything a man needs, I don’t deserve you and I know you fantasize about leaving me. 


Break my heart before you fully resent me, please. I don’t want to be awful luggage carried around through out your life. 


You only live this one life, I wasted your time writing down rhymes trapped in my own mind even when you asked if I was alright the only words I could conjure up would be lies. 

Broken promises and less wins than losses just isn’t right. 


I see it clearly now, I see the resentment swelling up with the tension of a goodbye. 

I’m nauseous and filled with fear; 

My eyes become glossy and begin to tear. 


Expecting a goodbye, I feel a warm hug sensation as I open my eyes to her smiling so bright as she says Hi and Good Morning...


What a nightmare but who knows, I may still be dreaming...


Signed,

Those Meaningful Words. 

Comments

  • Mar 30, 2019

  • Maurice  Beres

    Maurice Beres

    Intriguing 🦋🦋🦋

    Mar 30, 2019

  • Mar 31, 2019

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