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I talk more than I do. Let me tell you how it feels...addicted to poison. Stay calm cause I don't want the pains of reaching towards being clean. I dont want the responsibility of a lot of things. Its not what I want always. Its maybe what someone needs. I give. So they wont go. I gave because I didn't know. I didnt know or stop to think the consequences of needing someone. I'm alone now. A little chilly
 His air conditioner is on. His room is 90 percent clean. Whome, you might question who am I  talking about. a friend from long ago. A friend that fades into my veins. We never forget each other. He never Forget Valentine's day. The day I broke his heart. That was just the first time. But we never  Forgot one another. We never really let our friendship go..
 An illusion I assumed would pass as I got older became more real to me than ever before.   Just needed love, just needed a drag, just needed a fix. I am done like Rocky said in part four. I don't want to be like before. I want to rest my head on someone's shoulder. My family consumed in their righteousness. But this is how it feels. Every face turns away. No one wants to really give you the time of day. And I think, how sad it could be until I hear a voice calling so gently. I suppose it could be my creator. And I hear, you are stronger than you think. Remember it is a learnt behavior. I wish it wasn't so. Love. Hate. Fear. Pain. Unexplainable feelings of things I rather not feel. God come in. The door-my door is open too. He said I'm coming in because I love you. He never hurts me like all the men do.. Love. Crazy emotions that feel right at first. Pretending to see. Pretending it'll work out? To feel. Because we can't help that. But all I see is no way and all I these  feelings is truly absurd. I know this. But I then, I barely touch the domino. It falls. And all the rest fall silently and fast. This my friend Is how it feels. Addicted. Contaminated and they go away. And it was not always like this....but this is how it feels my friend.