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If I eat, I will gain weight.
If I don't eat I will still gain weight.
So I don't eat, but then I still gain weight.
I'm miserable, ugh.
I am so tired of my life.
I get fat shamed, bullied for unknown weight gain.
Is it my fault.
I will refuse to eat, and will do anything to loose weight.
I started cutting, I wanna be a anxoria and never eat.
I'm so tired of being shamed, is that my fault.
I was put threw those terrible stage's in life.
I try to make friends but I suffer.
I am afraid to speak, to eat, to make friends.
To be honest I have been shredding weight, but I wanna loose more weight.
So I continue to not eat, and I will do anything to loose weight.
Don't you dare try to be my friend.
Don't even speak to me, I am far from perfection, I am a total mess.
I just hate my life. So I will do just about anything dangerous.
I wanna stop being such a terrible wreck.
I been put down throughout my entire life.
I'm so use to having backstabbing friends, so I will refuse to let back in.
I will walk away from society, and I will be in a happier place.
Being with myself is a happier place.
I am suffering in depression. Suffering.
It is breaking my heart, it's making me feel terrible.
And to look at a magazine of a girl who gets to be so pretty, make's me so jealous.
I am being honest, I wanna be very thin, I want my life back.
I wanna be happy, normal, wanted to make some friends.
But I have a demon, a demon that pulls me away from society.
I wanted a boyfriend but I feel so weak, unhappy, so I will apart myself from remaining in the society.
I wanted friends and I wanted a boyfriend.
People just ruined the society with negativness, and they have to make life feel like a terrible place.
They will backbite, cheat, lie, steal your man, beat you up, break your heart.
Oh how damaged I am because they built themselves up.
So I will be within my own life, I will hug my own venomous demon, and I will be a toxic to myself.
I am dangerous to my soul, to my body and my own mind.
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