Category : Diary/Journal
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On February 1, 2008, I received a phone call announcing my son was born, making me a father for the first time in my life. I was out the door and on my way to the hospital before the phone call ended. I did not want one more second to pass without meeting my son.
Racing like I was the only one on the road, I arrived to the delivery room within what seemed to be seconds. An instant smile overtook my face, and tears of joy spilled from my eyes. A fountain of emotions that I could not, and didn't want to contain. My heart stopped and started so often, I'm still not sure if I was alive in this world most of the time.
I held my son and an instant bonding occurred. His crying eased as I held him close to my chest. I gently brushed the little bit of hair that he had with my seemingly gigantic hands, and I hugged and kissed my sweet baby boy. I whispered to him how much I already loved him, and how good of a father I was going to be.
Having Aiden was the first time in my life I felt unstoppable. The experience turned me into the man my father always was, and knew I could be. Aiden brought me out of the biggest, deepest depression I have ever felt and helped me realize most of the questions that were left unanswered after my father died. My son created a superhero inside of me in those brief moments of meeting him for the first time.
Nobody was going to keep me from him for any reason, and I finally had found a purpose, so I was not going to give up on that feeling.
I stayed there and held my precious boy as he drifted off to a restless sleep. I gently laid him atop his overly protective mother, and I slowly left the hospital. The drive home seemed to take hours compared to how quickly I had arrived. It had really opened my eyes to how my emotions controlled me. Not only my behavior, but my prespective on time as well.
I then realized I had become a man, and instantaneously acquired a new way to live for myself without taking one second of any day for granted. Ultimately, the message of life and it's particular meaning for me was miraculously delivered through my son.