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There’s a saying “death and taxes are 
unavoidable “.My wife takes care of the taxes .As I am in the twilight of my life
or my September of it, depending on which song you prefer, I find my  thoughts more focused on the subject .
     During my eighty four years I’ve 
encountered death on many different levels but rarely my own.Yes, from time to time I thought about mine but is was abstract rather than reality. It is no
longer abstract and the reality highlights the inevitability.
     I have no formal religious training, God was never mentioned at home. But there was always emphasis on my cultural heritage and the meaning and practice of humanity.
     I  rarely thought about an afterlife until my mother died and even that thinking was sporadic. But when my son, Marc died the issue of an afterlife 
became a  prominent part of my thinking. I also , as l matured, began focusing on  the natural  and human
wonders, beauty and creativity and pondered the existence of a supreme force or supreme being although  that was beyond my basic comprehension. But the need to see my son again persists and now incorporates my mother,my dad who died when l was six, as well as close friends and family.
     My thoughts of dying range from missing all the things I’ve enjoyed in life,the pain it will cause my beautiful family to the different interpretations of life after death if indeed that truly exists.
“Will I be pissed if there is no afterlife “
Is a phrase I’ve used in my writings and discussions on the subject which illustrates my own uncertainty . 
     My philosophy now has boiled down to-cherish the people you love and the friendships you’ve made,stay as healthy as your body will allow,enjoy what life can still give you and be patient until the time will come when your question with the be answered, there’s no rush. Let my wife worry about thetaxes.