Category : Diary/Journal
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I'm sorry I wasn't who you thought I was
Fuck it....
I'm sorry I wasn't who I thought I was....
You ever have someone that from the first word they spoke to you, you're able to respond without thinking?
Someone who made simple little things such as laughter an conversation, pleasurable an no longer dreadful...
Someone who made you so comfortable,
You have to make them uncomfortable?
Let me welcome you to my nightmare!!
Wait.... Lmao... I'm sorry,
Now you're confused!!!
Not me, lol ... "Confusion" ?!?
It's what I do!!
Right now you're reading this thinking
"Crazy bitch what's wrong with you?"
But because " Overthinking" is something I know how to do....
I'm sitting here thinking of you too!
My Anxiety
PANICKED.
But it's totally fine....
My life has always been manic.
I've learned to carry more than one disguise
OMG!!!!
fuck....
Don't pay attention to what your about to see.
Insanity...
I swear that girl isn't me!
I only wanted you to see the "Cute Me"
I needed you to "Adore Me"
Tricked by my own facade,
I Lost all sight of me!!!!!
Because I was uncomfortable and ashamed of the hurt I felt inside.
Awkward laughter was how I mastered keeping it all bottled up,
Could push it to the side.
But somehow you knew.
You saw right through me....
I don’t know what scared me more,
You wanting to know my secrets
Or my willingness to share them.
Listen...
I've caused pain, I've caused hurt, I've stripped pride
Both on the surface and deep on the inside
I wasn't born with this darkness
But as I get older it gets harder to hide
I've had my emotions crushed an sadly crushed a few along the way
And at the time, I meant every single word I would say
Every word of love, and every word of hate
Every time I would adore, and every time I'd berate!
I can't help it,
I'm Sorry....
I was bulit this way!
So Let me ask you this...??!!
Could love turning into hate be someone's
fate?
Or does that only happen by mistake?
Is reality fake?
Because the longer we wait....
Time seems to change everything
An hurt emotions seem to slip away
Time.....
That seems to be the only thing that we're guaranteed!
We try to live so fast,
We end up getting addicted to Speed!
Rush to the car because we're late,
Run here go there,
Mad because someone else caused us to be a minute late!
Time seems to be fate!
Like were all rushing,
We as humans need to know....
What's going to happen?
When it's going to happen?
An how it's going to happen??!!!!
Could"Death" be our only Fate?!?
I'm not where I planned to be,
But right now Insanity
Seems to be the only thing sane to me!!!
