Category : Poems

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I know what it's like
To be depressed
And hopeless
Full of darkness
Anxious for death
And Beggining for rest
I know all about self distruction
And self hatred
Falling into a rage
Slitting my wrist
In an angry fit
Never fitting in
And always being outcasted
Enemies as friends
Always giving into temptation
I know all about hard knock lessons
I couldn't be my best
I had no success
Worries made my heart beat 
 Strait threw my chest
I was a wicked mess
Completely opressed
Blinded by evil
Intoxicated with narcotics and beer
I had no fear
Yet i still couldn't persevere.
I would try to drive
But the devil would steer
I went to college
graduated with honers
Yet had no career
 I was in anguish
While everyone else was in cheer.
So I broke the laws
To rebeal
And Ended up in a holding cell
Chow time
And head count
Ring a bell
My life was strait hell
I couldn't even get up
When i fell
And no one would help
Me better myself.
Friends were enemis
They slayed my hopes and dreams
Inside i screamed
 So Loudly
Lord please
 help me.
But i still couldn't hit my knees
I was confused by religiosity
I refused to confess my sin
I couldn't even look at my own
REFLECTION
and the devil 
Thought he was gonna win
Untill finally i said
Forgive me Lord Jesus of my sins
And give me the streangth
 and courage        
I need to Repent!
But yet
I was still bent
Perfection
Never happened
It was a slow and painful
Transformation 
From with in.
Then one day
God answered my prayers
Eliminated worries and fears
And replaced them with cares
I was soaked in thankful tears
Suddenly
JESUS took the wheel.
Now don't get me wrong
I still struggle
Like im blessed
Like im cursed
But my soul is saved
And to be damed
Would be much worse