Nightmares Read Count : 159

Category : Poems

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It has been 12 years --seems as if forever ago was yesterday.

All of this time, the painful healing-- memories that won't go away.

I'm speechless, there's no words, but inside I have so much to say.

I relive and replay--not just sometimes but 10 times a day.

I don't mean to come off like I've built walls that'll never break.

But I have and I do and it sucks.because from this nightmare I'll never wake.

He is still teaching me and in turn I teach them

But I don't need my dad, I need my best friend.

I'm surrounded by love, yet I feel so alone 

Because I don't want to fit in so I don't pick up my phone.

I am what I am and it scares me some days,

 but what he taught me best is nobody can take that away. 

So I'll still be as stubborn, but believe that I care.

I just say what I think and to me that's still rare. 

To the ones who don't get it I will still be an ass.

just remember i don't sugar coat I don't hide behind masks.. 

I miss him a lot,--- think I miss myself more. 

I still love unconditionally, even though my heart has been torn.

And as I fall asleep I think maybe it's not as bad as it seems.

But I'm beyond ready for these nightmares to turn into dreams...

Comments

  • nice

    Mar 04, 2019

  • it's nice but can be more good

    Mar 04, 2019

  • Lexi Harris

    Lexi Harris

    its kinda good but you need to add a little more please i would love to read it again but im to busy now...bye! Btw i loved it!

    Mar 04, 2019

  • Mar 04, 2019

  • Maurice  Beres

    Maurice Beres

    A lot of strength in what you say 🦋 Seems stronger than your doubts 🦋 When you keep loved one alive by memories writing and conversations It can help the grief 🦋it’s wonderfully Written 🦋Keep believing in yourself 🦋 Never give up

    Mar 04, 2019

  • Mar 12, 2019

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