Category : Poems
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It has been 12 years --seems as if forever ago was yesterday.
All of this time, the painful healing-- memories that won't go away.
I'm speechless, there's no words, but inside I have so much to say.
I relive and replay--not just sometimes but 10 times a day.
I don't mean to come off like I've built walls that'll never break.
But I have and I do and it sucks.because from this nightmare I'll never wake.
He is still teaching me and in turn I teach them
But I don't need my dad, I need my best friend.
I'm surrounded by love, yet I feel so alone
Because I don't want to fit in so I don't pick up my phone.
I am what I am and it scares me some days,
but what he taught me best is nobody can take that away.
So I'll still be as stubborn, but believe that I care.
I just say what I think and to me that's still rare.
To the ones who don't get it I will still be an ass.
just remember i don't sugar coat I don't hide behind masks..
I miss him a lot,--- think I miss myself more.
I still love unconditionally, even though my heart has been torn.
And as I fall asleep I think maybe it's not as bad as it seems.
But I'm beyond ready for these nightmares to turn into dreams...