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I was a troublesome child,  I was always in trouble at school,  home,  grocery stores,  it didn't matter.  My own family members never wanted to take me anywhere. 

I guess you can say I was the black sheep. I  tried to behave,  but it was hard for me.  Because of the way I grew up,   I suffered from depression,  and  bipolar disorder, on top of the ADHD. 

So when I became an adolescent I started getting a little bit of freedom from the house,  and I discovered the opposite sex. I  would become highly sexually active.  

I would have sex more than six times in one day,  and I had  to  step outside of myself,  and then and analyze my own actions.  I  was substituting sex for the lack of love my  family gave me. 

I was involved with an organization,  but  to me  this was love,  and  Loyalty. 

At age twenty two I had my first son, no amount of  parenting classes or training will prepare you for eighteen years of providing for another life that you've created. 

I thank  The Most High Elohim for my seven blessings, they are the reason for me  turning my life around.  They need me  around. 

Fatherhood is  a  God given gift,  we are placed in position to be  what he is to us. 

We get to be their,  strength.