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     I do

      I do means two being put together as one, or at least that's how it's supposed to be anyway. I don't believe in divorce. I believe in love forever and always. I believed in us. I know we always fought. I know I'm not the easiest person to get along with. I know I was happy with you, but for some reason you weren't happy with me. If you weren't happy as long as you said you were why didn't you say something sooner than this? Why did our marriage have to end like this? Why couldn't we talk about it first? Why did it have to come as a surprise to me the way it did? You just up and left me; You left me with my heart on my sleeve and you don't even care. We have been everything together, marriage, death, love, happiness and heartache. We had a child born in heaven. Give me a knife so I can cut the pain from all this out of my heart. Give me a gun to blow out the memories in my mind of all the good times and bad because it hurts too much to think about you right now. It hurts even worse with the good memories because I am still in love with you and I am going to miss everything special like Valentine's day, Christmas, birthdays and most of all anniversaries.  There will never be any more of those for us. You are leaving me and ruining a six and a half year marriage for someone you haven't even been with for two months. You chose that over your marriage, our marriage. That's what hurts so much. That's what I don't understand. What did I do to you to ever deserve this? Give me a needle and thread so I can sew up the heart that you broke. Its not just any heart. It is my heart. The day we got together you said you would never hurt me; you said you would never leave me. You did both to me. I can honestly say I didn't see this coming. I should have had a pair of x-ray goggles so I could see right through all the lies. Give me a rope around a tree so I can hang my tears out to dry. I am sick and tired of crying all the time. The tears falling from my eyes, the tears falling from my face need to hang out to dry. I always said if you left me I would end myself. That's not the case anymore. I'm already going through enough pain being without you by my side anymore I don't need anymore pain. I said I wouldn't be anything or anywhere without you but guess what, I will. I will be me again. I will be the person I used to be before you. I will survive without you. I have family and friends by my side and I do promise you that. No matter what you say, no matter what you think I do and I will. I love you but you don't love me. That is the fact of the matter and it is going to hurt for quite a while but I will get through it through the love of family and friends. I will and I do. 

                                                Mildred Springer


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