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At some point in my life, I thought I could do anything, be anyone I chose to be. I thought I could be in control, that I chose my fate. I guess I was somewhat right, however, no matter how much control I thought I had, life was always one step ahead. 
I suppose I just have really bad luck, given that my life’s a straight up mess. In the past year alone so many bad things have occurred around me. My car was totaled, my truck broken into, my apartment broken into, my bank account, and my identity was stolen. 
Like Jesus Christ, girl, you’re a walking disaster waiting to happen, a hurricane waiting to hit shore, a volcano laying dormant til just the right time to erupt. 

I planned to go to college, to be a nurse, but all I can’t think about is the fact that I can barely even help myself, how am I suppsed to help other people. I mean, shit, really? 

I used to be really into psychology, but that’s the same road, can’t help people if I can’t even help myself. 

I’ve always wanted to be a writer, but when I think about that I think about how many people would have to love my writing for it to work out. A teacher? Haha, yeah I could teach kids to be imploding messes right beside me. Nope. Not gonna work. 

What am I? Other than a huge, chasm of misery and doubt. 

I guess the world isn’t just icing and sprinkles after all.