Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

It's been nine months since I last saw you, one month since I saw some traces of you, and I still wonder about you. I wonder a lot more than I should, and a lot more than I reveal. After all that I've been through, you've been through, and we've been through, it's hard for me to reach out to you because I know it's pointless. Pointless because you're hurting, pointless because you're still hoping, and pointless because you're still holding onto a dream that you truly believed in. Still, I can't help but wonder about you. 

I wonder if you got the comfort you were seeking when you came to see me nine months ago. I wonder if I succeeded in taking a little bit of your pain away in that few hours that we spent together on that night. I wonder if the sparkle that was absent in your eyes had come back. I wonder if you're okay. 

I don't have to wonder if you're over her because I know you're not. I don't have to wonder if she's struggling with her heartbreak because I know she is. I used to wonder if the two of you will get back together but I know the chances are slim. I wonder if you know she's trying to be strong, to move along and carry on and that she's doing that with a heart that was broken in two by you. I wonder if you love her enough to let her go, to not stand in her way of finding her true happiness. 

I wonder if you're willing to sacrifice your happiness for her happiness, to stand unseen on the sidelines and love her from afar. I wonder if you would do all of these to prove to her your love is true, the same way I have done for you.