Saddened Memories Read Count : 71

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Hope it makes sense. 


I’m still very much having lots of trouble writing. Much of what I write doesn’t make sense. I’m trying to get out of it though so I’m forcing myself to sit and write. 


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And so I screamed. “Is that a solution?”

Is any of this a solution? 

It can’t fix it! 

It can’t repair what has been broken

You can take the pain from my heart

But I’ll still drift into my saddened memories 

The heartbreaking, heartbroken results they lead

Is anything a solution

When dealing with the sad tormentor of my dreams

When all I’ll get is suffering, suffering, and more suffering 

When all this solution brought 

Was trials of sorrow 

Directing my mind to my saddened memories

What will this solution entail

Will I prove to prevail 

Or am I doomed to fail


I’m at a loss of what to do

What if I’m wrong 

What If all it does

Is let go of the rope that’s 

Sustaining me in my saddened memories

What if 

What if I’m just fighting fire with Fire 

What if my solution doesn’t work

So many what ifs 

What if my solution is wrong? 


I can’t stay here

In my saddened memories 

It’s just resulting in a stream of tears to flow

I’m stuck adrift in my saddened memories

Being ruled by my sad tormentor of dreams 

Stuck on a path still unknown 


My solution 

What will it entail 

What will I have to do?

To make sure it works 

You’ve already taken my dreams 

My memories 

and my heart 

How much more can I give? 

How will this solution work?

If in order to get rid of you

I’ll have to get rid of myself too? 


A whisper running through my head

Turn back!

Turn back!

You will fail!

He will prevail! 


No! 

No! 

It’s gonna work 

It has to work 

I’ll prove it 

My solution It will work 

I will prevail 

You’ll see 

I can escape this prison 

I’ll no longer be held captive in my own mind 

I’ll no longer be stuck within my memories 

You can no longer control me 

Your powers they are powerless against me


I will prevail! 

I will not fail!


You will no longer be the sad tormentor of my saddened memories 


I promise

I promised them 

I promised her

I promised myself 

I’d be okay 

No matter what it entailed 

I promised her

I wouldn’t break 

When my solution failed 


How could I have broken her promise so easily 

How could I have broken my promise

I promised I’d be okay

I said this would help me

To escape my saddened memories 


But even after the mind games

The late night cries 

And all the what if’s 

All I’m left with is broken promises


And saddened memories 


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Comments

  • this is very good writing. I hope my writing can be as good as yours

    Jan 14, 2019

  • Maurice  Beres

    Maurice Beres

    Powerful 🦋we all make mistakes but they should not crush us-we all deserve another chance toward happiness 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

    Jan 16, 2019

  • Excellent writing! 💜

    May 28, 2019

  • Kenroy McLean

    Kenroy McLean

    this is good Writing boy.You see am faceing the same problem stated in stanza one everything i write seems to beed stupid to me thats why i dont put most of my stories out.

    Jun 05, 2019

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