Category : Diary/Journal

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Ugh,  I can't have nothing if the lord doesn't wish it in my path. :( I won't be blessed if I'm with someone who doesn't believe in God or going to church? How crazy. :( I mean I want to be happy and blessed an filled with positive. I get half of that here where I'm at with patents. Did I achieve anything. Yes. I got thought how to clean and not be worried or stressed. But I also want my family. I want good to happen. I wanna get better at keeping up with bills and cleaning. And cooking. And keeping a house or apartment. :( yes I have to learn how to take it slow. Have a plan. Take. 1 thing in at a time. :/ sigh what to do!!!  Mind feels like ready to bust open. :( I always make a mess. :(