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What is love? Does anyone else find themselves this question? I find myself asking it all the time. When I look at my children my question is answered. The love is Patience love is kind saying truely has meaning when it comes to my children. But when is comes to a partner, I find flaws and reason not accept the love is Patience love is kind within a partner. It's not that I don't want love. Because I truely want to find my life partner. But I have built the perfect lover in my mind, thus caused a set of standards and if a person has flaws or does not meet the set of standards, I without any doubt walk away from something that could have turned out good. Seeing is believing. Actions speak louder than words. I once was a person who took a lot of things from people. Always giving chances. Never being one sided. Always putting myself in other peoples shoes. As Emapth it just comes Natural. But it also came with alot of heart break. Heart break that caused alot pain and more anxiety. It took me 4 years to allow myself to let myself feel feelings towards another person. And in thoses 4 years I changed. Being empath I've learned to become better at different things when it comes to people but unfortunately I have never been wrong about person. So here I am in a relationship. A month in. I cutt everyone off, to be fully dedicated to this man. Why? Because I knew if I allowed myself to be in a relationship with him, I would never have to worry about him being unfaithful. He's been good to me and my kids. But he has flaws, flaws that my standards don't see fit. Which causes me to struggle With the relationship at times. Than there are times I have to catch myself from telling him I love him. He isn't one for sharing his feelings which is my biggest problem. It causes doubts and causes my anxiety to be high. Any other guy that would be like that I would have cut ties and moved on. Yet with him I'm not. I feel really stuck and I don't know what to do.