Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

I have a problem finishing things...
I often read the last page of a book first,  you know just in case.  I'll even Google endings to movies and shows you know!? JUST in case.
I've gotten into relationships I won't see through ; heard heartfelt I love yous and failed to say them back thus ending the relationship early- incompleted.
 
I have never finished feeling so low  the tide could roll in and out and I would have sunk so low so Below sea level that I never knew it had ever crashed over me in the first place
I have never finished climbing out of the Abyss that my doctors and therapists have told me  would be an uphill battle but a war that could be one 
for me the battle cries are my lullabies
Lullabies that don't work
 I haven't finished a full night's sleep since the 10th grade
I have never finished fantasizing about killing myself that glorious moment when I can stretch my soul and be free from the organs and emotions that tied me down into my tenement because quite frankly my depression was quite the slumlord
I've never finished slicing into the Monument of God's image that I was created to be or at least that's how my overly religious grandmother believes it to be
I've never finished my attempts they've all been stopped they've been left unfinished so many times I begin to believe maybe it's not meant to happen perhaps I don't know maybe ...I just haven't finished living...