Missing My Youth!!! Read Count : 129

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Sub Category : Motivation

So im. Here listening and waiting for the decades to go back to the 1990s.it was the decade of my child and teen years growing up listening to my favorite people.learning to live laugh and love.and challenge of being a grown up learning how to live.ad learning from my mistakes and second chances.i really miss all the music friends family I had way back when and there.the things I did weren't always right but I was still having a blast with my friends.if i could go back yo tar decade id be thinking more clearer.And not be so messed up.i wasnt popular than but i wish I could go back to than and there.when I was growing up I remember doing simple things like celebrating holidays birthdays spending time with family.Playing with friends and dolls perfect just loved playing Barbie and imagining we were our favorite idols.i think everyone remember there first love celebrity crush or first love.

I wish to God I knew who mine was back than.i had crushed on many but still no real love or relationships ever have come yet.im hoping I don't die before I find my someone my soulmate the one .Before I end up missing out on life and everything else that goes along with it.just not being alone or dying alone.my worst fears.dying alone being alone.i want to be around my family like twenty four seven because it kind of helps me stay grounded.ANd not always just insincere and out of place.not being insecure anymore 

I'm missing those says like it were yesterday.but I know I can't go back and it kind of sucks for the most part.Becoming mentally ill has come to be the worst thing that ever happened to me in life just once id like to not hear things for one day week year or month .just feeling like I'm not a lonely woman whos only just turned the age of thirty.last year.im feeling like I am.losing my place in this world .yet still I don't wanna die or deserve to so many years young.ive missed out on a lot.and sometimes I wish i were back there but know it wont happen again anymore. Only in my dreams and thoughts will it come true not yhe way its always had been planned.

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  • ok comments nicely welcome

    Oct 31, 2018

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