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Today tears stained my black eyes and my black face everytime. I tried to convince you bro I am not conceited. I am Not lawfully playing you. I Am so  beneath you .

I love you. I need you. I want this friendship be further. I want shout and scream little longer .fck fck fck! 
Be like leonard dicaprio in Romeo juliet, pull gun to my misery. So much confusion dismantle my clarity. You hear me.

"Yes!"

Do you understand that we have so much in common and mistakes are particuLar even?"

"Yes."

Then what is the problem?" I asked. "What is the problem?! I cried.


Him 'my problem is i am stuck. I Am used to the past. I don't know how to accept people flaws?"

I say nothing and he adds " your new self changed and wonder why?"

Why.
Why.
"Why you make your thinking so difficult?I  am the wonder after all these years,why hold onto past? 

The past is old and gone. He continues to be stuck with it. No move foward no embrace me.I given and receive love. No love has given to me but God himself. The almighty,the prism lord and his throne. 

When I speaks to him,he say "Love your self. Love way your image of me. Don't be of the world  but be in it.  Live as god planned for you and wait for me to send you husband."

I been waiting and i only take in my own learning.  Grown up in the knowledge that I always have God and myself to self love.