Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

People tell me to smile everyday. Varieties of people who think they understand me. Teachers dangle papers, that I don't even want to do, in my face and say smile. Then they wonder why it doesn't work, instead of making me happy they make me upset adding on to the already piled up reasons I don't want to smile. They never stop to think that at that moment I have nothing to smile about. People smile when they feel happy, to smile on command is just awkward, it's like dancing to no music. Family try often to get me too, they say smile, your beautiful, it's a wonderful day, your alive. But they don't understand that I don't feel beautiful, I don't see the wonderful days that they see, everyone's lives are different and mine is a constant struggle. Yes I understand others go through the same thing and still smile. However I do not want to smile, I feel no need to hide how I feel. When I feel down I don't want to smile and play pretend. I want to feel happy again and in order for people to help me feel normal again they need to know how im feeling but i dont have the nerve to tell them so my smile fades. Some days I just don't feel like smiling, even if nothing is wrong with me. Some people will never understand that putting on a smile isn't always going to help make it better but do what you've got to do.










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