Demons Behind This Smile Read Count : 130

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I've always been stuck inside my own head. Doomed never to express what I'm feeling to another soul. I've recently found out that a friends is struggling, she has been struggling right infront of me.. struggling with people who don't understand, but maybe, just maybe they understand all too well, maybe they are struggling as well and the only way they know to cope with their demons is to release them on others... slowly drowning in her own tears every night my friend is close to death greeting him like an old friend. I feel what she is going through because that girl that she has become used to be me. I'm not sure exactly when I got out of that state of mind, maybe I never did, maybe I've just become accustomed to feeling down, maybe I've been hiding behind my humor and that's why I've started joking more and taking things less seriously. My friend is smiling now but I know she's hurting. She's showed me things from her darkest moments that lead me to believe that this smile she has painted on her face will fade soon after she leaves my sight, soon after she leaves everyone's sight her demons will find her and take her back to that place where she feels alone. The place she feels no love, no security. Where all she sees is darkness. I feel as though I can not help her. After all how can I help her when I am incapable of helping myself. Although as of now I smile when necessary to hide from my demons but I will cower no longer as I am also sharing hers. 












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Comments

  • Nov 06, 2018

  • welcome to the club of misfit souls

    Nov 06, 2018

  • amazing!!!

    Nov 06, 2018

  • Jasper/Eowyn Carpenter

    Jasper/Eowyn Carpenter

    welcome to the world of hurt souls. we all need someone to help us. but some cant get it my friend. its good that you are helping her

    Nov 25, 2018

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