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I still remember 
The blood dripping 
My eyes in a daze 
I can’t think straight 
I remember thinking 
“What the fuck am I doing?” 
Every time you sacrificed 
My soul 
For your pleasure 
I still remember 
How you said you would pull the trigger 
I didn’t believe it
Figured you knew better 
I still remember 
The day before you did it 
You came by my house 
Talking about
being friends forever
But you were my lover
So to me it was bullshit 
Now I see 
It was never about me 
Now I see that your insanity 
Was the inability 
To accept this life’s poetry 
It’s a beautiful tragedy 
Specially for a hopeless romantic 
Who feels more emotion 
Then he knew what to do with 
Tell me what did you do with it? 
What did you put it into? 
Nice little bow ties 
Superficial lies 
Bullshit about pictures, apartments, hot girls and adderall?
I’m sorry I couldn’t fix it 
I’m sorry I didn’t see 
What you needed from me 
I was only 19 
Young enough to think straight 
But not old enough to know better 
I still remember 
The picture 
Posted all over social media 
now where you longed to be 
Far from the reach 
of our closed door society 
Far from the four walls 
That you hated so much 
Far from me
I still remember 
The phone call that morning 
“Hey baby, just seeing if you’re awake yet” 
“Hey handsome! good morning, yeah what’s up?”
“you know I was thinking we should really just be friends “
“Are you fucking kidding me Chris! 
Not again with this shit!
I’m not just your friend! I’m over this!! 
Just leave me alone Chris! 
I don’t ever want to speak to you again!!!” 
I remember running
Running 
Running 
Running out of breath 
Running until my chest 
Felt like it would implode 
Felt like all the world was against me 
I remember 
The sting 
More prominent then it had ever been 
The fire in the water 
That raced down my face 
took me to my knees 
Begging 
Begging me 
Please 
Please 
Not this
I remember loosing composure 
Throwing everything 
Yelling for you to come save me 
I remember the way 
You would set up a romantic space 
With wine and 
Rose peddles 
Music played 
And you would massage me 
oh so gently 
I remember falling 
Falling in love with your smile 
Falling 
Falling in love with your ideas 
Of a better life 
One where 
we didn’t have to think twice 
about whether or not you love me 
I remember..
I remember you 
Chris..
Your blonde hair 
Blue eyes 
Impeccable smile 
Chris?
Are you there? 
I sometimes think I can feel you here 
I know you remember my words 
“i think about you every day, I’ll always love you! Forever and ever!” 
“No you don’t” you said with a grin 
“One day
far far away
once we’ve gone
you’ll see 
See that what I’m telling you 
Is wholeheartedly” 
Chris...
Can you hear me? 
Who knew the truth would come so soon 
I can see the blood 
Drip 
Drip
Drip 
down my legs 
Into the water 
It’s crimson 
Just the way I remember 
You see this 
Is this how you wanted it 
My eyes are hazy 
I’ll see you soon baby