Category : Diary/Journal

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In a room full of people, watching everyone and everything move around me, I feel numb and completely alone. Since the last time I saw him, I have not felt joy. Everything now is stalemate. I can't get him out of my mind. He's forever in my thoughts as I continue to search for him. My brain is on overdrive, my soul is in pieces, and I don't know what sleep is anymore. 

All I ever wanted is to be his; in mind, body and soul. He came into my life, warmed my soul and filled my heart with joy in the smoothest of ways imaginable. He covered every inch of my skin with his touch so light and gentle. No matter how low I feel, his voice reverberates in my soul. It accompanies me through this difficult journey. The gentle timbre of his voice assures me that life is meant to be shared and loved, that my soul could fly freely. His absence is only temporary for his presence I feel deeply. In a small way, it is healing, for I know when the time comes, I would feel whole again. 

Sigh.... 

If only the world spun on the axis of love.... oh how happy we would be. Our souls would light up like the stars above, we would be in tune with nature, from the simplest of flowers to the mightiest of seas, and we would aspire to join the beloved divinity. 

But here I am, alone in my room. As I listen to the music playing in the background, I can feel its rhythm dancing to the beat of my heart. Even though we are apart, the bond between us will always remain strong. That we are where we are now, is enough for me. For now. Those who delayed us, those who stood in our way, I readily forgive. For now, he and I are sharing light; touching flame to candle, candle seeking flame, that's doubled-light freed. 

I love him with no beginning, no end. I love him as only a girl could love a boy. He had mastered the art of driving me to the ends of the earth; in search of the safest place.... Him.