Category : Poems

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I thought that I could forgive you
For what you had done 
That I could move on 
I had tried
Tried to forget about you
Permanently erase you from memory 

But each time I’d try 
A song would come on that reminded me of you
A sermon in church and I’d be thinking about you 
Sitting in the car looking out the window and I’m thinking about you
Even countless times
In crowds of over hundreds of people
I had thought I had seen you
Multiple times I’d be disappointed you didn’t show up
Or that you didn’t try and call

It got to the point where I just couldn’t forget 
It wasn’t something I could just pretend didn’t exist 
Because you are human 
You exist 
And what you did is real
That can’t be easily forgotten 

So I turned to the mind of forgiveness 
I thought that if I can’t forget 
Then I'll just skip that part 
And do the forgiving part

They say the easiest way to forgive is 
Find out why they did it
Get inside their head and learn their reasons 
But I couldn't do it
Because all reasons I could come up with 
Were selfish rotten issues that you had 
Things you didn't bother to control 
No reasons justifiable in my books at least 

So it's hard to forgive someone 
When I don't find them worthy

And it's hard to know
Whether you want to be forgiven

Or if you think your actions 
And our impaired relationship is ok

So perhaps I'll have to stay how I am 
Because I can't forgive and forget 
I've tried both 
And they were failures