Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

Why don't they understand? 
Why don't they believe? 
Why don't they have faith in me? 
Why am I always deceived? 


All I am is happy, I don't get it. 
I'm always positive
And they always forget it. 


I hate the shit I do but I can't stop. 
Everytime I hear their words, 
My heart, it drops. 


People are so quick to pass judgement, 
But I don't do anything wrong. 
I just live my life normally, 
But we never get along. 


The world, it hates. 
The people, they're fake. 
All these mistakes
I just can't take. 


Nobody believes I can change, so why? 
But I shouldn't just sit here and cry. 
Then again, I shouldn't lie. 
But all I ever do is try. 


Purging is my only escape;
Something I can control, 
Something that'll never leave me. 
People don't understand bulimia, 
And I'll never understand them. 


I have tons of health problems because of it, 
But I don't give a shit. 
I'll never quit. 
Never feel remorse, not one bit. 


And it's only because of them. 
They did this to me. 
I mean what the fuck, 
I thought they were my family. 


I can't trust anyone, 
Not anymore. 
They spill my secrets, 
They spread lies. 


So I'll do what I do best, 
And forget the rest. 
This is not a test, 
Just something that'll never rest. 


Just pretend like you never heard, 
That I'll always have that urge to purge.